Thank you for those writings, but I'm afraid the last one is all wrong. I am not dark and saddened, and it's good that you have good patients. I so dislike the loud, temperamental kind that won't sit still and take their medicine.

Just because my name is listed in the who's online here at the forum, doesn't mean I'm "online", it may just mean that I never logged out properly. In any case, I'm here now I suppose. So good that someone came to you asking for the book. It's there that so many real truths can be found.

Ah but darling girl, how unlike you to be so incorrect in your wording. You couldn't be the Episcopalian, could you? She, after all, was the one "I" rejected and sent away. I totally agree that it indeed is stale here, with immature and pedantic words finding their way more and more to my eyes. I'm hoping that changes, and soon. You're correct though in those descriptions of how I might appear as I'm writing. It's rather like many things I suppose in that, when it's flowing, it just seems unstoppable and for the moment all I want to do, and the opposite is true as well, and when I find myself stilted, I nearly want to give up altogether, so I do for a little while and then as with anything worthwhile, I come back, and the muse and I, we dance around one another until each of us finds that bit of the other that makes for such a good pairing. Once that is accomplished, the paper lies in wait for what words may brand it's surface.

Oh but everything, for the most part is fine. I'm heading up toward New England this coming weekend to get away from the South for a while. Cabin on the edge of a lake? Yes, everything is fine!

Now, haven't you ever been told that which you most want to avoid - you shouldn't avoid? Mm, maybe that's just one of my own theories. Yet, I wonder what is sweeter than the feel of immersion in a thing that might threaten to take over each sense and emotion... -smiles- Perhaps, not much.

What is the matter that you sound so despairing? You know how to reach me if you should choose. Otherwise, I'm afraid you're right. I'm here less and less. If you're half the woman I believe you to be, you'll see why, and know that it doesn't mean I'm in general less available. I don't think in the future of the board, that *I* will even have a thread such as this. I'd rather participate here and there in what discussions I might choose, but the often tedious nature of answering, no... I just can't see doing that anymore. But, the good news is, I've redone my site, and it's merely waiting for a few more things, before launching, so to speak. You know how it goes, sometimes it's all dependant on a few things, right?